That night, as we lay in our prospective places I hear mother moaning and so I look over and see she is slowly stroking herself. After a little time she gets up with a weak smile on her face and whispers on her way out of our small shelter, “I need to go for a swim, so I am going to the pool.”
“You want me to come with you, or stay here with Sophia” I ask?
“Hell I am awake too, we might as well all go to the pool” she grunts as she rises up from her sleeping post.
Like zombies we move along the trail we have already started to form on our trips back and forth and fall into the water which has chilled quite a bit. As we swim over to the ledge that juts out there is no talking but I notice each of them are on each side of me and I can feel their hands brush my sides as we swim with each of their strokes.
Sophia gives me a sideway glance as she slides a little closer when we are on the ledge and her thighs are pressed to my backside as mom moves closer and huddles next to me from the front making me the guy in the middle.
“This pact thing sure is hard” I say out loud.
“Not as hard as some things” mom says with a gleam.
“Give me a break you two that is disgusting. Is that all you two can think of, getting to fuck each other” Sophie exclaims.
That is when Sophia looses it and starts yelling, “Dad is not even dead as far as we know and you two are looking for a chance to fuck, to break the rules of society to commit incest! How can you think of such things it is more than disgusting! What do you think it will be like when we are rescued? We are not going to stop once we get back home!” Then she bursts out crying and hugs me from behind shaking.
Turning around to her know my hard on brushing her stomach as we hold the ledge I tell her, “Sometimes little sister it is not just about love, sometimes it is about need, the release so you can deal with what is going on around you. I do not know what it will be like once we get back home, but for now, we are not, so here we have to survive and I know it helps me to release my biological needs from time to time. How do you think mom feels knowing her husband of over 20 years might be dead?”
Mom swims around and hugs Sophia from behind, “Your brother has risen to be our protector and with that comes a responsibility we need him focused and we need ourselves focused do you think it is easy thinking of what it might be like to be intimate with him or you for that fact?”
“I just can’t do it” she cries out and swims back to the other side again.
“As much teasing as she does with me, I would never have thought she would be frigid” I say to mom.
“I think it is something else, did you ever think maybe, all that teasing has been a way for her to feel safe with you, but now she knows if she teases it has real meaning and for her that means she wants you but is afraid to go through with it?”
“I never thought of it that way” I say to mom.
“Go to her son, I know we made a pact, but she needs to know she is safe, even though the rules have changed or are changing that you love her, I think she feels if you have sex with her, then she is no longer the same with you. I will go back to camp.” Mom heaved herself up on the ledge with a smile over her shoulder telling me she too was ready to end the pact, she needed more now too.
Boy am I in the thick of it I think to myself as I watch my mom kneel then stand before she walks away. Looking back at my sister I see her there in the shallow portion of the water crying.
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