I was a soul, or so I reasonned I could not be sure of such things but I was precieving and this was good I needed to think more than see but only in seeing might I chance understanding so I looked at all I could see I was desperate then by luck, yes i believe it was sure dumb luck I realized something that in all religions I had ever known there were two things in every religion's lessons recongize the powers that can fuck you up and love the guy in charge I needed to start now but I was already cast down by this divine but I figured what the fuck could it hurt then I thought it might be a good idea to pick my thoughts more carefully just in case so as best i could i humbled myself and i cried in soundless voice.
"Uhm, God?! i am really really really sorry. If there is anything i can do to help make things better PLEASE let me know. i admit i don't get this, and i know i have really messed up, but please i want to do better i want to help You, but i understand You uh Thou don't need my help but it is still here. If Thou will let me well you know, i mean Thou know, yeah so... But if Thou are too angry i totally get that well i guess i probably can not get that but i shall accept it. Yeshua? If i may, i do ask for a hand."
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